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who ever thought this year's spring break was going to be a week to remember?!

__ midway __

well . as custom .every time i have a week off from school . i always go down to delaware to chill with my best friend meli . but this time it was easter . so she decided to come here the night before and spend easter at my crib . so that we did . and that night we were going to go have easter dinner with gzus, bet0, lala, and 2 other friends of gzus' . now let me tell you this whole fcukin drama . gzus is from massachusetts . who occassionaly lives in teh bronx . and dude said that he wanted to come out here to spend time and shiet . so he and his boys decided to take the GWB to get to where me, meli, and lala were . just as they had gotten off the fort lee exit . they get pulled over . the initial reason for the stop was that the driver [ bquito ] had a cardboard blocking the passenger window because two nights ago a crackhead had broken into the car . smh . so being that they were mostly all hispanic in the car and the police in fort lee are racist . they told them all to get out of the car . when asked if they were carrying any drugs . gzus replied no and told them to search the car . great move buddy ! . he had forgotten that inside the car was a fuckin machete . don't even ask . they're dominican . only them . lmfao . so while the police were searching the van . gzus had 2wayed meli and told her that they had gotten pulled over and that they were sitting in the cop car . so her, i and our boy gee who we were with at that time, went to all of the GWB exits just to find them . one we got to the spot . i noticed the minivan . and was like "that's them" . and sure enough . we see 4 boys all in the back seats of the cop car . meli parked the car so that we could get out and see what was going on . the minute we got out the car . the cops turned the corner . with all the boys in the car . and drove off . we then hit up lala to go get her and go over to the precint to see whta was going on . we got there and had to wait at least an hour to see what was going on . after an hour . we asked the officers if they knew anything . and they said we had to come back monday morning because they had to see the judge . so whatever . me and meli were supposed to be in delaware all ready . so we decided to spend the night at lala's house . that night . some niqquh called banx from n v told us that he wanted to go with us monday morning to go get them out . so we said ok . on monday . me and i drove all the way to the bronx . got lost . and found our way to banx's house . from there we came back to jersey and went to the precint to go get our boys out . come to find out that one of them [ bquito ] had some money wired to him and was released while the other 3 were sent to county . we went all the way to county and found out how much their bail was . $2500 each . thankfully . gzus' mom was there to help him out . bet0's mom was called and she got him . and luisito's "biddies" helped him out . yet bailing them out was a long ass process . we were there from 2 in the afternoon till 9 at night . and once again . me and i needed a place to stay for the night . so gzus' mom offered to let us stay at her house . so whatever . the boys got out . and we all went back to the bronx . talk about a crazy night . getting drunk . smoking some fcuked up weed . to almost passing out . to babysitting someone because he got ripped . to getting some sleep at 4 in the morning . to admit . it wasn't a bad 2 days . then finally on tuesday . meli had to go to work that night so unfortunately . we had to go ;/ . we finally made it down to delaware . and finally . frannie got some relax time ;] .

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word of advice . never take someone who is under the age of 18 out of the state they live in . because if not . it's called kidnapping . smh . aint that some shiet?! . never again banx ! great spring break don't you think?

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i suppose it just isn't meant to be

_between_

why is it that everytime GOD sends me a new person into my life . that i can actually see myself with . HE takes them away just as HE gave them to me . blah . i guess i shouldn't blame GOD . people have their own minds and make their own choices in life . then why is it that they choices they seem to make . even if it's to protect me and not wanting to see me hurt . tend to destroy me or break me down!? . i wish people would stop trying not to hurt me . and just fcuk'n hurt me all ready . at least if it's intentional i can hate them for it . instead of still caring about them . and feeling the way i do about them . -holds tears back- . why did you have to let me go?! you have everything i wanted . you have everything i needed . yet you told me you didn't want to lead me on . you didn't want to hurt me . you told me how you really felt . and at this point . i wish you didn't . if someone likes you and cares for you so much like they say they do . then why aren't they the ones who stick around?!  why couldn't you just try and make it work?! these are just rhetorical questions that i know the answers too . yet i wish you'd understand how i felt . feel what i feel . what am i saying!? i know you feel the same . i know you didn't want to let go . but i suppose it's for the best . why string someone along if the fear of hurting them is so unbearable?! i guess i just don't want to see it that way . yet i can't go on and hate you . i don't even want to try and get over you . i keep thinking in the back of my mind . you'll realize that i'm the one you wants . that i'm the one that won't hurt you . i don't ask for much from people . just respect, honesty & trust . i got that from you . i didn't expect you to be with me right away . i didn't expect you to be with me anytime soon . i was just going with the flow . and letting fate handle things . i know this isn't what fate had in store for us . look at how close we've gotten . to throw that all away?! . just say you want me back in your life .

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"He'll Be Back"

I know better than anybody how it feels to want somebody so bad after you break up

Still
(Looking for that phone call)

Still
(Even when they don't)

Still ain't ready to walk away and call it all over
Act like you wasn't listening when they told ya
They don't wanna be with you anymore
Stuck in your ways, you choose to ignore

'Cause in your mind, you're still together
Thought it would last but there's no forever
Walked out on you with no call, no letter
When he realize it don't get no better

[Chorus:]
He'll be back
To make up for the lonely days
He'll be back
When things ain't working out his way
He'll be back
When he sees that it's not the same
He'll be back (he'll be back)
He'll be back (he'll be back)
He'll be back

He knows he's gonna need his lady
He'll be back
When his boys say he must be crazy
He'll be back
He'll know he made a big mistake
He'll be back (he'll be back)
He'll be back (he'll be back)
He'll be back

You don't want to believe it but you see it happening
Wakes you up out of your sleep, out of the dreams you're having

Still
(Looking for his return)

Still
(Hoping that he's gonna learn)

Wake up and realize the truth, make some time for you
What's he trying to do to you
Miss him more as days go by
Try your hardest not to cry and keep hope alive

'Cause in your mind, you're still together
Thought it would last but there's no forever
Walked out on you with no call, no letter
When he realize it don't get no better

He'll be back
To make up for the lonely days
He'll be back
When things ain't working out his way
He'll be back
When he sees that it's not the same
He'll be back (he'll be back)
He'll be back (he'll be back)
(He'll be back)

He knows he's gonna need his lady
He'll be back
When his boys say he must be crazy
He'll be back
He'll know he made a big mistake
He'll be back (he'll be back)
He'll be back (he'll be back)
(He'll be back)

(Thinking)

(Every)

(Wanting)

(Haunting)

(Thinking)

(Every)

(Wanting)

(Haunting)

He'll be back

(Thinking)

(Every)

(Wanting)

(Haunting)

(Thinking)

(Every)

(Wanting)

(Haunting)

He'll be back
To make up for the lonely days
He'll be back
When things ain't working out his way
He'll be back
When he sees that it's not the same
He'll be back (he'll be back)
He'll be back (he'll be back)
(He'll be back)

He knows he's gonna need his lady
He'll be back
When his boys say he must be crazy
He'll be back
He'll know he made a big mistake
He'll be back (he'll be back)
He'll be back (he'll be back)
(He'll be back)

i guess it's jsut wishful thinking........we all talk about how we want to be happy. when in reality we're the ones holding ourselves back

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4 more weeks till school is over . my count down continues ...

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oh my gosh ! . i got the best news on tuesday during statistics class . my wifers meLi got back with her love rafy ! . see . i'm always right . i knew niqquh was gonna come back around . i was there with her through the tears . i heard her stories . i told her to go out & try new things and people . i didn't want her to sit around waiting for a niqquh and not live life . so she did . but i knew in the back of her mind . rafy was always there . and so he was . everytime she had a new man . he'd just be a substitute to what she couldn't have and what she wanted . and she would always compare them to rafy . and even mention rafy to the niqquhs . even being with another niqquh . she would still cry about rafy . so i had to explain to her . dudes my age and shiet don't realize things when you want them too .it's more like a process they go through . it happens on their own time . and it finally did . see . good things happen to those who wait . and it was almost 2 years of waiting . but i know to her it was all worth it . damn man . i was the only one rooting for that niqquh . lols . i aint even know dude like that . but i do know the kind of situation she was in . when your heart longs for someone . and you won't let yourself move on because you know deep down inside . that person is the only one for you .

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her heart is fianlly whole again . a true smile spreads across her face . she shines with a glow of the angels . meLi darling - i'm so happy for you . i know that this is what you've been waiting for . and now i know that your life is complete . i hope this time around . all the tears you shed are out of joy and happiness . you know that no matter what . i'm here for you regardless . wifeys 4ever . love you always . and to rafy - though you might not read this . please be careful with meli's heart . like i said before . hold it in the palm of your hands . because he heart is precious just like crystal . let it drop . and it'll shatter into a million pieces . hold it in your hand . and show it care and affection . i know that you will do right by her . it's been a while . and i know you have learned and matured in the past year and a half . all i ask of you is to make her happy . and be the man i know you can be to her . i wish both of you the best of luck . love you

__side note__

doesnt that sound like a toast at a wedding ?! . lols . might as well be <3

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imma sexy bitch . fcuk what you bitches heard ;]

__midway__

well . the wifers came & left . -='[ . i miss her ass all ready . damnit meLi ! . move here all ready ! . qeez-us . lols . but yea . she came . and i was all happy and shiet . wednesday aint really do much . went out to eat at a dope spanish spot . after that . went to go get some dessert with lala . who then figured out that she locked her keys in her car . yo . we should never try to steal a car . lols . we'll get caught with the only quickness . we spent a good half hour trying to get the lock open . with no luck . so we waited for her pops to come . then meLi &i came home . we chilled in the crib with some dude named jayson . awwwwwwwww . he's the cutest thing . funny dude too . but it's always the ones you think good of that tend to do some fcuked up shiet . so . fruck him too . on thursday . skipped school and went to jersey gardens . came back home . that night meLi took me and her friend vic out to the movies . watched hide &seek . that was the best movie i've seen all year . i trying to hold back screaming so0 many damn times . lols . but the funniest shiet was watching vic and meLi . lmfao . [inside shiet] . but yea . fcukin we had to drop his ass off in ny . tell me why dude sucked at giving directions to his home crib !?!? . smh . and then me and meLi were on our own to find a way back home . never underestimate wifey_set . because we found our way out ! . all the way to the lincoln tunneL . ^5 . that's my bitch there . anyways . friday came . and she had to go home . -=[ . -sigh- . welp . 5 more weeks . and i take a trip down to delly for my week vaca for spring break -=D . lols . i know . what idiot takes their spring break in burb ville !? . well . that's my get-away spot . and trust . i need to get away .

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the most intellectual females i know : meli-lala-kathy . yea . them bitches got beauty and brains <3

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song for the moment : jesse mccartney-because you live

__midway__

well im excited . the tristate wifers is coming up . haven't seen her in . umm . a month ;x . lols . but you know . it sucks when one of your best friends lives kinda far . but yea . she'll be here tomorrow . and stay till friday . o0  mans . it's the fifth week of my sixth semester . damn college is going by so fast . and even faster for me . because i've been in school all year round . and i thought it'd be forever . but it's flying by right before my eyes . finally got my squad at school and shiet . the old crew kinda broke up -linnette/cynthia/and myself . because cynthia is finished . and i never see linnette . so it was about time to venture out and make new friends . these fcukin people are hilarious . good times though . hmms . let's see what else . i'm doing very well this year . made a commitment to myself not to blaze or get drunk . and so far . it's the second month into my commitment . and i'm doing good . -pats self on back- . other than that . life is great . still single . yes . but i have a positive outlook on it . just because im single . doesn't mean im lonely .O.- . heheh .

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well . i just wanna shout out my girls . wiifey_set : the take over - meli-kathy-lala- . couldn't have asked for a better group of friends . i love you girls . and the dedication to the song of the moment : jameszy my hubberSz . thank you for ALWAYS being a positive influence and giving me the best advice a friend can give . you and i have known each other for so long . im glad i met you . and im glad we're close . i love you little nukka . ehehe . mwwwwwwwwwwwaz